the fire god

Well we are home, we had an awesome trip and feel rejuvenated and relaxed.

The last day though marred an incident that we are still working through. As part of the resorts entertainment they have a fire show. Now normally we find those non triggering, we enjoy people eating fire, as bizarre as that sounds. But this time we were caught unawares. The show started with them coming out and playing with fire seemed Innocent enough, till they turned around and were wearing masks, but these werent normal masks these were fertility god and goddesses masks. Instantly my palms went sweaty, i was unable to move any limbs, we looked away but it was too late.

As they lit an ancient symbol on the stage we saw ourselves lifted we were maybe eighteen months old, we saw people swaying, moving in time, we felt the heat of the flame it hurt it stung, suddenly we were passed through the flame to the other side, this went on each time, and each time they were counting but it want in english it was in what sounded yiddish maybe hebrew. My skin stung but didn't get burnt, finally i was placed down on the ground where i was warned to not move, Over and over our body this fire moved as sticks with fire on the end roved our body. People in masks, scary.

We snapped ourselves out of the memory as fast as we could thanks to mr wonkas and rachels teaching and tried to regain our composure, as our friend who we went with was looking at us quite strangely. But for some reason this memory is still etching on our psyche no matter what we do to stop it. its like its important but i dont know why. Maybe someone out there does.

Thalia