Who are those monsters? Might be triggering

Rachel and I met on Monday. She had had a week off so it had been a fortnight since Id seen her. we spent the session reviewing what had gone on week s before with ebony and another alter. She spoke a long time to the alter who came before ebony. this alter for the first time since she last saw Acantha shared a lot. And even though Ive started up this new blog i dont trust that Acanha isnt lurking and could damage this alter, so for that reason i cant say her name. but I can say that this alter is now talk sharing exploring the world has lived in and we are amazed at her courage.

But Rachel as she talked to me for a really really really long time asked the most poignant question of all. Who are those people that do these things to children and who follow the cult to such a degree. So in my observation who are those people.

Those people are always paedophiles they like abusing little children usually the smaller they are the more power they feel. They get off on a the smallest of screams and get accolade for abusing the most smallest of children. it is normal for the first sexual abuse to occur between the ages of 3 - 9 months. Usually the highest hierarchical leader chooses who will have first dibs, an honour is given to the first person to break the child in, and if needed money will be exchanged.

These people adore power they like seeing smaller people become dependant upon them. tHey prefer children to be so scared of them that they will do anything to please them. They thrive and live on power no matter what the cost they dont care, their next victim is their new target, make them suffer, the more they do the more accolade they get for their fear.

These people like having secrets. They adore the fact that rest of the world operates and they have a piece of society that no one knows about. They adore secret societies it makes them feel like they belong. Often these people are good upstanding citizens so the game of hide and seek is exactly that its a game. its a game of good cop bad cop. During the day they are upstanding well presented good citizens at night they can destroy and cause pain and rape and devour All that pent up anger is allowed out and as the child separates and spins out of control and people like us separate they go back to their life next day as though it never happened.

Financially these people get a lot of benefits. its a huge money spinner to ruin a child ,prostitution syndicate equally even more so for child pornography. This is not about getting caught people who run the system dont get caught, this is about the human deprivation of a the smallest of all children. Usually after 12 the pay dirt isnt as as interesting so the ones after that are sinmply abused for interests sake but the highest money is always earned for3 - 6 months to 11 years old.

These people are often highly intelligent upstanding well know members of society. That is what makes it All so appealing. Daytime im a worker in society night time i can worship the darkness and reap so many rewards. Almost like they play a game day and night.

there are no rules when it comes to abusers, why because rules of society dont exist. When we were being abused it was simply us against a row of people. Our survival was a field of daisies, the abusers survivals were a field of people willing to find a way to take over whatever they were doing. we were simply pawns in the game of life that was dog versus dog.

Then of course the saddest of all perpertrators are those who wre once victims. Those people who felt the only way to get out of being abuses themselves was to become abusers. In the minds of their own abusers this only allies them to the factthat they have done right by hurting these children because in their minds they believe everyone is like them and the victims becoming abusers only proves that. The danger of a victim becoming an abuser is that they know how to hurt better than their own abusers and can often inflict damage more powerful than they were given themselves. The other danger is of course the vidtim come abuser one day wakes up and realises that they are living out their own abuse by being a perpertrator over and over again and then the game of keeping those child victims who became adult perpertrators quiet.

What i can tell you that non one who has been a high up cult member or even oterhwise lives a long happy life. Long before they die at whatever age their memory is wiped. They start to become past their use by date their mind wiped of memories, cant tell the secrets if you have none to tell. Alzeimers hits as do many other aging symptoms. The devil never keeps you for long and wipes you when hes done. The last memory I have of my grandfather was one day before his death he was catching imaginary flies in a mental home. A day later he died. My mother was left a scrunched up old woman shivery In a blanket whilst a doctor told her she had hours to live, less than 12 hours alter she was dead. These monsters survive only but a short time it seems their evilness wipes them out earlier than most if not in human spirit then in life.

MY personal observations of people who keep those sort of secrets is that age catches up fast. Secrets of abuse of another makes you old and decrepid well before your time. For our experience there is no point fighting the system to expose the truth of what has gone on, why because often the same people who you are telling are part of the same society. Our belief for clients and therapists is the more work done in exposing the truth in therapy and the more other survivors hear about our survival the more courage they have to heal and pass on the mantal to the next person. I relaises long ago i couldntt save the world from these people but i can give the power back to survivors and by stopping my own circle of abuse my children are also safe. The wheel has stopped turning.

Johnny