Reuniting selves

we have been thinking a lot about a few changes that are going on in our life. Firstly we have some inroads into doing some hours in a nursing home. It seems that over here people dont stick with chef jobs at hospitals or nursing homes because its hard work. Understanding dietary requirements and all of that makes for extra work. But i know that we would thrive with that sort of challenge and it seems as we have made enquiries some roads are opening up for us. This makes us both nervous and excited. Its so daunting returning to workafter fifteen years but wow we cant wait either. We still have to do months in college but a lot of it now is field work and that we love doing. We start back at the cafe' on monday wohoooo.

But we realise that we need to make some changes we feel after two years of seeing Mr wonka that we have gone as far as we can for now and would like to concentrate on some things with Rachel. We know abut breathing and all of that we use the here and now method, we also use the internal safe area in our system. There are a few things left to do with Mr wonka but for now we feel we cant do anymore until we have done a bit with Rachel. Amelia's really opening up with her and earlier this week Amelia made her way down to the fountain to read a book to the littles, whop crowded around her asking if she wasnt sick anymore. It was a huge moment for so many years of heartache. Amelias also trying to communicate with those inside shes not blocking them anymore and i am wondering if perhaps its time that maybe Amelia bought her inner alters their own toy or something similar. Maybe by her doing that it might help reunite her selves with each other and herself. Im not sure but i feel that somehow Amelia needs to reunite with them in order for them to be free and so treating them as her inner children might help with her hearing them better and instead of it bening them and her it might bring them to her closer so they can get the healing they need and she needs herself. I will talk to Rachel about that when i see her next week.

We are finding the activity that was so part of our life prior to Acantha with alters talking and playing and safe. There are alters who are waiting to get healing but instead of hiding as they used to with the ex therapist they are watching and listening and when Amelia came out of her room the other day it was like some cataclysmic event took place in some ways i wonder if the alters are looking at Amelia and her future healing for inspiration in doing their own.

Deshanti