Taking the cult crap out of the system

I saw Rachel yesterday we got into the discussion of altars who have attachments. Her concern (as it always is ) is that altars are given a choice and that they will Be happy with the decision. Now rachel is doing her job as our therapist and she asks the right questions. Are we by choosing to decide to remove this entity taking away the altars choice to do it herself. it is a question we have pondered about for quite a while.

And the answer lay in the most interesting of all places and that is sam. As we were talking through the issue of the complexities of living cult law and life we talked a lot about sam. We talked about where she was placed and as Rachel for the first time grappled with the enormity of such a precaution that we had to take, and also i saw a tinge of sadness for sam to be in such a place. It is the same sadness that we grapple with all the time. Is it right to keep an altar who through no choice of her own was created and manipulated in the cult to be who they wanted her to be and that answer for us is yes it is justified.

In the time we have locked sam up our life changed dramatically and instantly. And when all the whoo hah had settled down we were left with a mind that immediately was clarified in what we needed to do to get free. in the last three years we as a system have worked tirelessly both in and out of therapy to get good and healthy and forever healing. We rarely think about whta used to be but often think of the future. In fact our ex cult life (and that is what it is an ex) barely enters our mind outside of therapy. And by that i mean the spookiness and the need to untangle everything from start to finish isnt there anymore. if we face a trigger we are able ot say hey you know what thats a trigger breath it through and save it for therapy if its stil an issue when we see rachel.

there are no cult members on our doorstep trying to interfere with our life and maybe its because if they are we arent noticing or even caring. if thats all they have got to do with their life so fucking what. As we gain healing we also gain understanding of the cults brainwashing and training and that in itself makes us more powerful over our own life. As we break down the cults infiltration in our system we also break down the power hold that the cult loyal have internally. As we move away from what they are doing and concentrate more on what we are doing we are finding that healing in is cult loyal altar talking the other day is a powerful step toward a incredible journey healing we are having.

One of the decisions we made was to no longer go with what the cult might do to us if we did something to get free and instead gain freedom regardless. In fact im finding as we are healing we are alos healing in our walk with the god we choose to follow, something spiritual; is happening in us that we dont share but its there anyway. In many ways we are finding our feet with god, in a private moments of time. We are finding we are more thankful toward him than we possibly make out to anyone about. we are finding that as the darkness moves away we are indeed finding an new source of light.

But we also made a promise to ourselves that if it wasnt helping us heal then we needed to find out why. In this case this altars loyalty doesnt lie in her freedom to choose but in her fear of what might happen if she doesnt and so we have chosen to remove the entity and see how her brain copes once she sees things without fear. And yes we are having terrible dreams and sensations as the day toward that moves closer but each time we do we remind ourselves that anything that makes us feel that bad about ourselves ain't worth keeping, and that is how we reached the conclusion about this entity.

in the same way whilst sam and Acantha played out against each other it was putting over life at risk so sam neded to be contained as did Acantha, both have both been contained sam in her prism and Acantha in her job (or lack of). But i totally 100% know that whether sam likes it or wants it as healing descends on the system as dark as she is she is still part of us and healing in he heart is happening. And so even for sam we are offering hr choices by choosing to get well.

Sa'de