no regrets (part two)

over the years we have done many things we regret but there are so many more that we dont. 

We will and can never regret moving down here to our beloved beach.  the transformation of our life has been life giving and fulfilling.  the water gives us life and hope and freedom.  Whenever we get a moment we sit at the beach and read a book, its our piece of heaven safe from the outside world we cocoon ourselves in the views the sights the smells the natural enjoyment that it brings.  At times we have found ourselves so immersed in tranquility two hours have passed and we are usually reminded of the time when someone walks by and starts a conversation.

We of course do not regret having our five wonderful children, perahps we thought we regretted it when they small and the twins were babies and people would stop us all the time or they would out loud count ur children and go one two three four five and then say to each other do you think they are all hers.  But as the kids have got older we find them much more entertaining and fun, we see movies together go out to dinner go on holidays its lovely.

We dont regret ever starting therapy or engaging in the therapy process,  although we regret the wasted years with mon we dont regret ever seeing a therapist in the first place we may not have heard what we wanted to hear but i guess in the end it did answer all our questions.  We will never regret seeing Jane the therapist we saw after leaving mon and the way to which she put into place her ideas of safe boundaries and how indeed safe we did feel once they were in place. 

We will never regret taking the plunge and trusting out instincts and inviting noel and his wife into our life.  At times noel can be exasperating and contrary, but hes shown us something that we havent really ever had in our life and that is as safe male influence.  When we do get together he listens and offers advice and at times has to be patient as we try and sort through the millions of issues that unfold in our life all the time.  Noel suggested rachel a our next therapist  (once we had left jane) and   Noel was the first person i told that i was leaving mon and hes been a firm foundation for us to vent ever since.

We dont regret and we never thought we would say this but we never regret when our first alter integrated and the process that has been since.  For years we were so afraid of the process of integration and now we regret al the years we rejected those internal alters wishes but on a positive we have worked it out now lol.

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